Wednesday, May 11, 2011

31


Un, dos, there.

floor balck on the corner

weep ended weep

´till you can´t no see anyone else

but yourself right in front of

but your /face stunning/ right there

the skyline on your back left there

coming around soon will see

close, close, closer eyes are your own eyes

black on the corner

weep ended weep

black the corner

on floor

left ended right there

the skyline on/your face backwards

reversed from your face/

right ended left there

the model

your way

no you

but the redhead

left there, right there

hea(d)red.

+ 1





(Listening to Blaine L. Reininger's Night Air)

+1

With all the figurations and avatars of such a formula. From the first time we see it, to Nostalghia, and its later irreversible transformation in the ineroxable, unyielding negative.

Just 1, from here, which means separated, projected, after the most minimal difference. Just 1.

As the enigma of the necessary and the hazardous, truly a coup de chance. That is, from here.

Or perhaps just a desire, or the formula of desire. + 1. All as it is + 1.

Thus a form of cancellation, and then annihilation. Think it through À la recherche till the Phänomenologie. Having always the form of the novel. Always + 1.

Or perhaps precisely—which ends up being the same thing—what cannot finish, or what rather does not allow to finish. The end, + 1.

As just a simple ghost or the ghost that comes and complicates everything. As one is sitting on a bench, in a reverie, perhaps trying to fit the events of the last or the most recent night. One peers above one's shoulder, and there it is. No longer alone.

Or when we were explained, in the good old days, our name. (Don't fool yourself, yours remains a traitor). And the sensation or feeling overcame us, that there must be something in addition.

Something there watching, with or as the lamp above our heads. Before and after the last story, when we were wondering what happens in the precise moment before sleep. One is thinking, thinking, which is just another way of saying telling, listening to the words, one's own words, and then suddenly (+ 1).

11, 21, 31, 41.

Or that number that in your young days posited itself as the mystery. Certain all too real trinity. 111.

It is rather nothing, or the little rock or bone that impedes the sentence of nothing. What laid after L'être et le néant and Seit und Zeit, what still lays waiting. L'attente l'oubli?

Just one little hedgehog on the road, duplicated in Ireland and France, arrived to Mexiko on the exact date, 11.

Or perhaps on Mother's day. + 1.

Or, cette fois en français, d'où est-ce que tu parles?

Where does it begin?

1901, 1911, 1927 + 1. 1981. 1989. 2011.

As your most cryptic mo(ve)ment. If you could still speak of something yours.

You have to get in line” you hear in your ears now.

Just one, one more minute, please.

That is until you find a deadline. You think you set it, but it is never the case. At least not for you.

And that is what you would call the incommensurability of the now. Or, it is always too late.

As you sat that day on the terrace of a café, reading and writing, asking yourself if you should have one more. Comment dit-on, wie sagt man? 2002, 2009, 2010, 2011.

You were alone (+ 1) that day on a terrace (+ 1) of a café, and as you (+ 1) were playing with the tongue (langue) (+ 1) in your head (+ 1) and on the paper, you asked yourself (+ 1), what was it (+ 1), and perhaps you remembered Burroughs last written words, or Beckett's. Love. What is the word.


Tuesday, January 4, 2011

to ashes


As I land. Into the land of ghosts. With stories of deserts, rivers and guns, denying them. With anecdotes of drunkness, eyes and violence. Bars. I deny them.
Into this room. Trying to support or stand, all the images on the wall. 1940, 1938, 2008. Observing my signature with a blotch, the inscribed doubt signaling nothing.
That nothing. Geist. As I survey that there is no gas, with my eyes--never the nose. As I try. Before the room, the roof in the middle of the city, stormed by images and lack of frames. Towers--yes, I'm lost. Grab a skinned lamb, cut the head, save the guts, and the lack of stench. Count down, with the negation of your belief. "Oh no, don't say it's true."
Rummaging schematically as if there ever was any kind of strategy. From the image the volume from the volume what, what I am trying to say. At the least a few voices, heureusement never enough. Until I halt, mark, and reproduce the missing journal. My book. Hold on.
Not so much the menacing confusion, as the lines and stings of the infatigable sights, gazes, vistas. Still the statue? Drop it, leave the image, or finish consuming it. A little more music and perhaps we can.
To your right, the bookshelves. Take one, read the inscription, read it again, erase it. Better yet keep the mouth open, let the color in, perhaps it will let you rest and the insomnia will be soothing. Keep writing, a few more lines before you cut your finger again. "I stained my fingers with ink" you read years ago, in the time when your hands were perhaps more rough.
"Look straight, even if I come too close." As usual you see only your eye, with a bright circle in the middle. Mortal fascination. "Do it again" you think, while seeing behind (where behind?) the veins over orange and the supposed liquid inside you. "I need to read him in order to go back to dry land" found yourself saying. Leave me my sterility.
A tragic activity, that is, if there ever was any visible ending to it. (Keep writing).
Singing? No, I never did. I just vent.
As I land. No, you're still on the plane, you can see the patches of white below, blotches, squares and flattened clouds. Keep writing. For now.